I would have to say that all relationships experience their share of trials and tribulations, mine however, is in over abundance. I've come to realize that what was once my driving force is now what holds me back. The person that once made me strong is now my biggest weekness. Something that was broken many moons ago has never been properly mended and can only be fixed by saying goodbye. I once wrote that romance starts by loving yourself, and I take my words seriously. I have to love myself and stand on my own so that I can be a better person. I am not proud of what I've been feeling inside, the bad thoughts and the many insecurities that go along with a bad relationship, so I've decided to end what has been an 11 year battle with myself. I could easily point the finger at you, and you know who you are, but I realize you only did what I allowed you to do. I tried to imagine a world were we could just be, but you didn't share that same image. I believe it came at too great a cost to you, and for this I cannot blame you and maybe I'll find the strength to forgive you....someday. So begins something new, a road that has been untravelled, something that is frightening and yet exciting. I wish you love and happiness, and I'm certain you hold the same regard for me. You will forever be in my thoughts, and I hope in time only good thoughts remain.
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